Nov. 29, 2009



The first December of this year, FRA links their cables to oversee the Swedish people's Internet habits, that's when all the "cable service" at the expense of Sweden's borders will be tapped, it means your email, your text messages, chatting, mobile and telecommunications. They make no difference between people, all are treated as suspicious. Is this a way to get people to self-censor themselves to believe that because someone is sitting and intercepting everything you do?

That the Swedish government has received this review can only be seen as a serious threat to a free society, and if the law is approved in one country, it will not be long before multi-country government is trying to impose the same law. It will end up that where we turn in the world, there is a mass iterception archive that knows everything about us and can point out exactly where in the world we find ourselves, we will be restricted on our personal freedom.

The Swedish Government would like to say that Sweden is a free country where freedom of expression is the case, is it not then a bit paradoxical to approve a law that listens to all of our telecommunications. The government condemns countries such as China, which intercept the population and restrict access to certain pages, but the FRA Act is at the base about the same thing, but instead of restricting us from accessing pages, the limited ourselves to listen to everything we do, they hope that we censor ourselves.

Something that has already gone through is IPRED-law, and perhaps the greater threat to us individuals, one thing is sure it is right that the people at IPRED, themselves use the same event that they contradict themselves, to get what they call illegal material. In the case of IPRED I do not think a law will stop people to dowload, instead film and music needs to become more ready to use, and cheaper, if it costs about $ 1to produce a CD, is it reasonable that it will costs $ 20. 
Radiohead released its In rainbow on the net for a couple of years ago and let the people themselves decide how much they were ready to pay for it, (I can say, I did not pay anything at all, mostly because I'm not  listening to radiohead and wanted to see how album sounded, but they would have been another band I listened to a lot, I would certainly pay for it), you really like music so I can imagine that you pay a bit more because they want the artists to continue to publish music





Den första december detta året kopplar FRA upp sig för att övervaka de svenska folkets internet vanor, det är då alla "kabeltrafik" som går ut över sveriges gränser kommer att avlyssnas, det betyder din e-post, dina sms, chattar och mobil och telekommunikation. Det görs ingen skillnad på människor utan alla behandlas som misstänkta. Är det här ett sätt att få folk att självcensurera sig att tro att för att någon sitter och avlyssnar allt du gör.

Att den svenska regeringen har fått det här igenom kan bara ses som ett allvarligt hot mot ett fritt samhälle, och har lagen blivit godkänd i ett land, dröjer det säkert inte länge förän fler länders regering försöker införa samma lag. det kommer sluta med att vart vi än vänder oss i världen finns det ett massavlysnings arkiv som vet allt om oss och kan peka ut vart exakt i världen vi befinner oss, vi kommer bli inskräkta på vår personliga frihet.

Sveriges regering vill gära säga att sverige är ett fritt land där yttrandefrihet gäller, är det itne då lite paradoxalt att godkänna en lag som lyssnar av alla vår telekommunikation,  regeringen dömer ut länder som kina som avlyssnar in befolkning och begränsar tillgången till vissa sidor, men FRA lagen är i basen ungefär samma sak, men istället för att begränsa oss från tillgången till sidor, begränar de oss med att avlyssna allt vi gör, de hoppas på att vi censurerar oss själva.

Något som redan gått igenom är IPRED-lagen, och kanske är den ett större hot mot oss privatpersoner, en sak står rätt säkert det är  att IPREDfolket själva använder samma handligar som de motsäger sig, för att få tag i vad de kallar olagligt material.

I fallet med IPRED tror jag inte att en lag stoppar folk att ladda ner, istället behöers media som film och musik bli mer lätttillgänligt, och billigare, om det kostar 8 kr att producera en cd-skiva är det då rimligt att det ska kosta 200 kr att köpa den. Radiohead släppte sin In rainbow på nätet för ett par år se och lätt folket själva få bestämma hur mycket de ville betala för den, (jag kan säga att jag inte betalade något alls, mest för att jag inte allas lyssnat på radiohead och ville se hur albumet lät, men skulle de varit ett annat band jag lyssnat mycket på, skulle jag med all säkerhet betalt för det), gillar man verkligen musik så kan jag tänka mig att man betalar lite mer för att man vill att artisterna ska fortsätta ge ut musik.

If you fall asleep you will never wake up.

Should be sleeping, but I'm not, I like nights better than days, when it's dark and quiet it's cozy, I get very inspired by it, creative. I wanted to share with you, (I don't know how many readers I have, but for those who reads this blog), a very well written visual beautiful movie, directed by Tarsem: The Fall.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n1YwOybwTrc

 


song 2 - blur

I had a quite interestin evening, night and morning, I just got back home, walked from dowtown, it was cold widy, dark and not a´soul outside, well´of course there was a lot of drunk people dowtonwn, but no one was stupid enough to walk home like me, al though I was not drunk but I'd sobered up around 2. I did not drink a lot a beer and two shots and that's was about it, I had fun dancing all night, talked with some guys, but you could clearly see that all they wanted was someone to make out with for the evening, I'm not into that. I also learned how to dance Waltz.

Good evening from a rainy sweden

Now we're going to have pizza, Swedish pizza, there's nothing better, okay there is, but it has a special taste.
I don't know what toppings to choose, I'm looking through the menu now, 69 different topping, it's like a pizza paradise. I'm the one chooing what to eat pretty  much every evening this week, black pudding, smoked porked sasuage, lot's of typical swedish dishes.

Anyway, I've been sleeping a lot, it gets dark at 4 pm, and it's dark even when it's not dark, you can't see the sun because there's thick gray clouds in the way, and everyone is walking around like they've been eating lemons, it must be the weather. Swedes appear to close themselves whenever the sun hides behind the clouds and the season turns. It doesn't help that this town, as many others, are built up with grey buildings that all look the same, in an even worst way tha cookie cutted houses in an American suburb. This gives me increased creativtly to do something, to cheer up these depressed people, if I only could get out of bed.


do you know me - John mayer



Efter att ha skrivit ut om alla mina problem, eller rättare sagt all min stress, känns det mycket bättre, nu behöver jag inte stressa om det längre.

Idag har jag haft en bra dag trots att jag inte steg upp förän 14:00, jag hade ställt alarm på klockan nio, men sov visst igenom det. ca 30 minuter efter att jag stigit upp drog jag med mig lillasyster till stan för att fika på Ebba's fik, Helsingborgs mysigaste fik, tycker jag i alla fall, där satt vi i en halvtimme, och gick efter det till Laserdome för att spela Dance dance revolution, men de hade tagit bort så istället spelade jag Time Crisis och Syster tittade på. Efter hemkomst ur en fullproppad buss, började jag rensa ut mina lådor som stått i garderoben i snart två år, Fan vad mycket skit man samlar på sig, Cd-skivor och DVD-skivor mest, ska göra mig av med allt, det känns inte som man flyttar på rikitgt om man har kvar saker på två ställen, och de samlar bara damm. Cd-skivor behöver man inte längre har all min musik på min extrena hårdisk, lättare, kan ha med mig det överallt.

Imorgon ska jag åka skridskor och spela Lasertag, det har jag inte gjort på ett tag, vare sig skridskor eller lasertag, så det ska bli roligt, såklart ska det bli roligt att träffa lite vänner man inte sett på länge också.


Bild från flickr.


the thing we want to do is not always the easy things.

How is Sweden treating you? not to good, It's raining, but thats the least of my worries, I know it wont do any good complaining but I have to write it down to get it out of my system. I had to reschedule my visa appointment because I had to get a new passport, and so it wont be ready until Wedensday and my appointment was tomrrow, also it takes them 5 working days to get the visa ready, which means that the flight that I have booked on the 5th of dec is  to early, I wont get the visa in time so I can't get into the country, and because of that I have to rebook the flight, and I do't know how much that will cost me.

I know everything happens for a reason, but right now I can't see why this is happening.


Kent - Krossa allt

So here I am on the plane to London, it's been about 4 hours (or it was when I wrote this in my journal) and there's another 4 hours left. I feel content not really bored, they got some really good movies on the entertainment system here, like 500 days of summer (that I just watched) and moon I think I'll watch that after I'm done writing this, They also got a lot of good music. I'll try to sleep a little to, I slept for an hour before they served dinner. It feels very odd and weird to go back.

On Saturday I'm heading out with Zuzzy (my best friend since I was 12, that I haven't seen for a long time, (this is weird I write things I'm obvious about, I'm thinking about writing this in my blog, now it's get even more odd)). There's a possibility though that we won't hang out, sometimes she cancel in the last minute.

There's french people all around me, whom don't speak english, I have to smile politely and point when I need something, I understand a little french but I can't speak it. It seems I always sit besides people who can't speak english, not that I mind, I like when i can read without getting interupted. We're over the Atlantic Ocean now I'm going to bed.

Kings and Queens

Today is my last day in Texas, if I stay any longer I would be an illegal alien.

Gravity - John Mayer

I meet the most peculiar people at Starbucks, today I met an inventor, who builds custom-made all-terrain vehicles, with wind turbines, solar power and sensors, I can't really describe it but take a look at http://cashbump.com/5.html.
I've been seeing a strange looking car driving around McKinney, and I've been curious to what it is and if someone actually is living in it, and today I met the man behind the car, and yes he is living inside it, and he's a fellow European, from Moscow.
Tomorrow I'm flying to Copenhagen, I'm not looking forward to 8+ hours of sedentary. I've got good books and music, but I usually get really really inpatient on flights and nothing entertains me.

in my place - coldplay

coinstar I love you... $18.
Starbucks guy, you make my day!

I'm glamorous

You better find me something to do when I get to Sweden, I'm hyper and I'm jumping on the furnitures.

We plan to do things but we end up doing something else,
I'm stating: If we went to the movies we wouldn't found this
If we didn't decide to go east we wouldn't end up where we ended up
If we weren't on our way back we would never go out in the first place.

It feels like I'm a teenager again, I love this feeling please don't let it stop.

I want to dance with somebody

I've been driving so much today, I could have just stayed out on the road not going back an forth, oh well I like driving as long as I can listen to music and sing (scream out loud) while I do it. First i drove 30 minutes to the college to pick up my I-20 that i need for my ambassy appointment then I drove 30 minutes back home again.

After that I felt i deserved to rest and watch the Big Bang theory and so I did. I had a au-pair meeting to go to at 7:30 and somehow 7:30 came up way to quick and I only had time to watch one episode of TBT, I spent the 4 other hours playing tetris and stalking people on facebook, I got of early, and yeah I talked to my family over skype. 25 minutes drive time to the au-pair meeting, we played pokeno i did not win $65 but I won a cool cup and a candy cane that I want to eat now, but I brushed my teeth and I'm lazy and don't want to do that again so I'll wait.
After Pokeno i drove back home because I forgot that I was supposed to go to Alp's workplace and then hang out with her, we wanted to see 1012 but she didn't got of until 10:30 and the last showing was at 10:20, so instead we came up with the great idea that we should drive to downtown dallas and take photos of the skyscrapers, or this was actually after we arrived at the point that we didn't have anything to do, because there's no cool stuff to do in mckinney allen or plano after 10:30.
We called up Chris, who I though had a boring evening, but he answered the phone laughing so we had to resign to something else, thus driving all the way to dallas, got there and were starving so instead of a lot of photos we headed north on 75 again (it's the highway from mckinney to dallas) and stopped at a café at 1:30 am in the morning, drove back to plano let Alp of since her friend didn't answer, I wanted to go dancing, but instead I am now stuck in my room at 4:12 in the morning, maybe I should sleep.

Nov. 11, 2009

About a week until I land on Kastrup airport in Denmark, I have some mixed feelings about it, It feels good to know that it's only for 2 weeks, I feel that if I'm going to make a commitment to something I have to do it fully, so my trip back to Sweden will be to get rid of my stuff I have stored in the closets in my parents house. Cd's, books, dvd's clothes, I can't possibly bring it all with me, so I'm going to give it away, (I do expect a small donation). Keeping it behind would be like having a safe harbor, just because you don't want to let go of things, that would just hold me back.

I have a habit of ending up at Starbucks more often than less, I don't really like Starbucks, I think it's overpriced and the coffee does not taste very good, but they do have a nice atmosphere and at "my" Starbucks there's a really cute guy working, and it's also the closest place to study or read. I get distracted sitting in my room. I could easily get distracted at Starbucks to, but at least they don't have computers there, that is what mostly takes away my time.

Jag står på en flygplats och väntar på känslan

You know what I miss the most about Sweden. It's silly really.
I miss being able to go to concert with Swedish musicians,
I want to see kent live so badly this spring, but I don't think there's any chance I will be able to do that, (paying for tickets, and having school and work to think about).
I don't really miss a lot of Sweden apart from that, but if I'm going to list somethings, it might have to be
  • the summers
  • Swedish foods (good tasting bread, saft och kanelbullar (cinnamonbuns))
  • the Stockholm archipelago
  • that you can use public transportations to go pretty much anywhere


Sweden starts looking more and more like a mini-America, better to be in the real America then. It feels like I have more freedom here. I can be proud over things I have accomplished without people thinking I'm bragging about it. I don't have to suit myself to "jantelagen" (the Jante Law).

I don't have to be "lagom" (moderately and only good enough). People in common are more nicer and have better manners here, you don't get the evil eye if you start talking to some random person you just met while out taking a walk, (if I even could get eye contact with someone on my walks in Sweden (most people look down on the ground when meeting someone, to avoid the embarrassment of looking someone in the eyes)).

When i go to Sweden in less than two weeks I'm not going to see the Stockholm archipelago, I'm not going to experience the Swedish Summer, I'm not going to see kent live, but I am going to eat a lot of Swedish food, take public transportation everywhere, (or my bike), buy kents new record and going to some other Swedish musicians concerts. I'm also going to greet people I met on my walks, no matter how weird people think it might be.



If you believe me, you'd have to disbelieve yourself.

this last week, pretty much the only thing I've been listening to is this cd: http://cdon.se/musik/relient_k/forget_%26_not_slow_[import]-7249540 / Amazon.com link.

I started listening to Relient K a while back, pretty much just before I moved here, so about two years ago and they got some really good records out there, But this one beat them all both musically and lyrically.
the cd starts of with the lyrics: How many times can I push it aside? / Is it time I befriended all the ghosts of all the things that haunt me most? right there you know you're in for a record with very personal lyrics, and we all know those are always the most emotional and straight forward records, those we want to learn all the words to and can recognize ourselves in.
Although many of the songs are like most of their earlier song, the up-tempo, pop-rock anthems, there are some really nice intro / outros and ballads that slows down the tempo, but they don't necessarily put down the pace of the whole record, instead they add a nice touch of downtime between the "scream your lungs out and sing along-songs".
This is a breakup album, but it's not filled with sad and pathetic songs, instead Relient K try to keep positive through hard times.
Relient K is a Christian rock band, and lyrics as "Cause you won't take my calls and that makes God, the only one who's left here listening to me" reinstates that, but the subject of God is never beat onto you, like most of their earlier records. All in all the Album is a great way of trying to get over someone moving on and seeing the better things that are yet to come, and the songs are put in an order of how you see things better and how you get perspective of things after a while. The last song This is the end (If you want it): "You're not the first thing in my life I've loved and lost, yeah I've thought worse things that I might be less inclined to merely just shrug off" puts it out there that we all lose things we love, and we're still alive, the world is not going to end.
I don't need a soul (to hold)
Therapy
This is the end (if you want it)

Come right out and say it

There is a shift in my consciousness.

Forget and not slow down...


Halloween was good, it was better than best it was great. I think it was the best halloween party so far! it's started of pretty dull because we got there before anyone else got there, but then as more people arrived it turned out better and better. I don't really need to get into details, because if you weren't there you wouldn't realy get it anyway, but the festivies ended with spinach omellet and a ketchup fountain at 6 in the morning.

Sunday I slept until 10, was to tried to drive anywheer feel back to sleep and woke up at 1:30. But yes sunday has been a good day as well, especial the evening: start your day with a smile, continue to smile all day, great all people you met like you're meeting your best friend, and you will certainly make someone happy and you'll met new people, I had a guy dancing with a mop at starbucks, a woman sharing a lot of useful information, at the same place, and I've been smiling all day. Life couldn't be better!



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