Kent - Krossa allt
So here I am on the plane to London, it's been about 4 hours (or it was when I wrote this in my journal) and there's another 4 hours left. I feel content not really bored, they got some really good movies on the entertainment system here, like 500 days of summer (that I just watched) and moon I think I'll watch that after I'm done writing this, They also got a lot of good music. I'll try to sleep a little to, I slept for an hour before they served dinner. It feels very odd and weird to go back.
On Saturday I'm heading out with Zuzzy (my best friend since I was 12, that I haven't seen for a long time, (this is weird I write things I'm obvious about, I'm thinking about writing this in my blog, now it's get even more odd)). There's a possibility though that we won't hang out, sometimes she cancel in the last minute.
There's french people all around me, whom don't speak english, I have to smile politely and point when I need something, I understand a little french but I can't speak it. It seems I always sit besides people who can't speak english, not that I mind, I like when i can read without getting interupted. We're over the Atlantic Ocean now I'm going to bed.
On Saturday I'm heading out with Zuzzy (my best friend since I was 12, that I haven't seen for a long time, (this is weird I write things I'm obvious about, I'm thinking about writing this in my blog, now it's get even more odd)). There's a possibility though that we won't hang out, sometimes she cancel in the last minute.
There's french people all around me, whom don't speak english, I have to smile politely and point when I need something, I understand a little french but I can't speak it. It seems I always sit besides people who can't speak english, not that I mind, I like when i can read without getting interupted. We're over the Atlantic Ocean now I'm going to bed.
- Frida
Kings and Queens
Today is my last day in Texas, if I stay any longer I would be an illegal alien.
- Frida
Gravity - John Mayer
I meet the most peculiar people at Starbucks, today I met an inventor, who builds custom-made all-terrain vehicles, with wind turbines, solar power and sensors, I can't really describe it but take a look at http://cashbump.com/5.html.
I've been seeing a strange looking car driving around McKinney, and I've been curious to what it is and if someone actually is living in it, and today I met the man behind the car, and yes he is living inside it, and he's a fellow European, from Moscow.
Tomorrow I'm flying to Copenhagen, I'm not looking forward to 8+ hours of sedentary. I've got good books and music, but I usually get really really inpatient on flights and nothing entertains me.
- Frida
in my place - coldplay
coinstar I love you... $18.
Starbucks guy, you make my day!
- Frida
I'm glamorous
You better find me something to do when I get to Sweden, I'm hyper and I'm jumping on the furnitures.
We plan to do things but we end up doing something else,
I'm stating: If we went to the movies we wouldn't found this
If we didn't decide to go east we wouldn't end up where we ended up
If we weren't on our way back we would never go out in the first place.
It feels like I'm a teenager again, I love this feeling please don't let it stop.
- Frida
I want to dance with somebody
I've been driving so much today, I could have just stayed out on the road not going back an forth, oh well I like driving as long as I can listen to music and sing (scream out loud) while I do it. First i drove 30 minutes to the college to pick up my I-20 that i need for my ambassy appointment then I drove 30 minutes back home again.
After that I felt i deserved to rest and watch the Big Bang theory and so I did. I had a au-pair meeting to go to at 7:30 and somehow 7:30 came up way to quick and I only had time to watch one episode of TBT, I spent the 4 other hours playing tetris and stalking people on facebook, I got of early, and yeah I talked to my family over skype. 25 minutes drive time to the au-pair meeting, we played pokeno i did not win $65 but I won a cool cup and a candy cane that I want to eat now, but I brushed my teeth and I'm lazy and don't want to do that again so I'll wait.
After that I felt i deserved to rest and watch the Big Bang theory and so I did. I had a au-pair meeting to go to at 7:30 and somehow 7:30 came up way to quick and I only had time to watch one episode of TBT, I spent the 4 other hours playing tetris and stalking people on facebook, I got of early, and yeah I talked to my family over skype. 25 minutes drive time to the au-pair meeting, we played pokeno i did not win $65 but I won a cool cup and a candy cane that I want to eat now, but I brushed my teeth and I'm lazy and don't want to do that again so I'll wait.
After Pokeno i drove back home because I forgot that I was supposed to go to Alp's workplace and then hang out with her, we wanted to see 1012 but she didn't got of until 10:30 and the last showing was at 10:20, so instead we came up with the great idea that we should drive to downtown dallas and take photos of the skyscrapers, or this was actually after we arrived at the point that we didn't have anything to do, because there's no cool stuff to do in mckinney allen or plano after 10:30.
We called up Chris, who I though had a boring evening, but he answered the phone laughing so we had to resign to something else, thus driving all the way to dallas, got there and were starving so instead of a lot of photos we headed north on 75 again (it's the highway from mckinney to dallas) and stopped at a café at 1:30 am in the morning, drove back to plano let Alp of since her friend didn't answer, I wanted to go dancing, but instead I am now stuck in my room at 4:12 in the morning, maybe I should sleep.
- Frida
Nov. 11, 2009
About a week until I land on Kastrup airport in Denmark, I have some mixed feelings about it, It feels good to know that it's only for 2 weeks, I feel that if I'm going to make a commitment to something I have to do it fully, so my trip back to Sweden will be to get rid of my stuff I have stored in the closets in my parents house. Cd's, books, dvd's clothes, I can't possibly bring it all with me, so I'm going to give it away, (I do expect a small donation). Keeping it behind would be like having a safe harbor, just because you don't want to let go of things, that would just hold me back.
I have a habit of ending up at Starbucks more often than less, I don't really like Starbucks, I think it's overpriced and the coffee does not taste very good, but they do have a nice atmosphere and at "my" Starbucks there's a really cute guy working, and it's also the closest place to study or read. I get distracted sitting in my room. I could easily get distracted at Starbucks to, but at least they don't have computers there, that is what mostly takes away my time.
- Frida
Jag står på en flygplats och väntar på känslan
You know what I miss the most about Sweden. It's silly really.
Sweden starts looking more and more like a mini-America, better to be in the real America then. It feels like I have more freedom here. I can be proud over things I have accomplished without people thinking I'm bragging about it. I don't have to suit myself to "jantelagen" (the Jante Law).
I don't have to be "lagom" (moderately and only good enough). People in common are more nicer and have better manners here, you don't get the evil eye if you start talking to some random person you just met while out taking a walk, (if I even could get eye contact with someone on my walks in Sweden (most people look down on the ground when meeting someone, to avoid the embarrassment of looking someone in the eyes)).
I miss being able to go to concert with Swedish musicians,
I want to see kent live so badly this spring, but I don't think there's any chance I will be able to do that, (paying for tickets, and having school and work to think about).
I don't really miss a lot of Sweden apart from that, but if I'm going to list somethings, it might have to be
- the summers
- Swedish foods (good tasting bread, saft och kanelbullar (cinnamonbuns))
- the Stockholm archipelago
- that you can use public transportations to go pretty much anywhere
Sweden starts looking more and more like a mini-America, better to be in the real America then. It feels like I have more freedom here. I can be proud over things I have accomplished without people thinking I'm bragging about it. I don't have to suit myself to "jantelagen" (the Jante Law).
I don't have to be "lagom" (moderately and only good enough). People in common are more nicer and have better manners here, you don't get the evil eye if you start talking to some random person you just met while out taking a walk, (if I even could get eye contact with someone on my walks in Sweden (most people look down on the ground when meeting someone, to avoid the embarrassment of looking someone in the eyes)).
When i go to Sweden in less than two weeks I'm not going to see the Stockholm archipelago, I'm not going to experience the Swedish Summer, I'm not going to see kent live, but I am going to eat a lot of Swedish food, take public transportation everywhere, (or my bike), buy kents new record and going to some other Swedish musicians concerts. I'm also going to greet people I met on my walks, no matter how weird people think it might be.
- Frida
If you believe me, you'd have to disbelieve yourself.
I started listening to Relient K a while back, pretty much just before I moved here, so about two years ago and they got some really good records out there, But this one beat them all both musically and lyrically.
the cd starts of with the lyrics: How many times can I push it aside? / Is it time I befriended all the ghosts of all the things that haunt me most? right there you know you're in for a record with very personal lyrics, and we all know those are always the most emotional and straight forward records, those we want to learn all the words to and can recognize ourselves in.
Although many of the songs are like most of their earlier song, the up-tempo, pop-rock anthems, there are some really nice intro / outros and ballads that slows down the tempo, but they don't necessarily put down the pace of the whole record, instead they add a nice touch of downtime between the "scream your lungs out and sing along-songs".
This is a breakup album, but it's not filled with sad and pathetic songs, instead Relient K try to keep positive through hard times.
Relient K is a Christian rock band, and lyrics as "Cause you won't take my calls and that makes God, the only one who's left here listening to me" reinstates that, but the subject of God is never beat onto you, like most of their earlier records. All in all the Album is a great way of trying to get over someone moving on and seeing the better things that are yet to come, and the songs are put in an order of how you see things better and how you get perspective of things after a while. The last song This is the end (If you want it): "You're not the first thing in my life I've loved and lost, yeah I've thought worse things that I might be less inclined to merely just shrug off" puts it out there that we all lose things we love, and we're still alive, the world is not going to end.
I don't need a soul (to hold)
Therapy
This is the end (if you want it)
- Frida
Come right out and say it
There is a shift in my consciousness.
- Frida
